So I decided to make some changes . . . yesterday while speaking with my midwife and sharing how lovely my intestines are feeling (no, not really . . . but the good news is that the baby has dropped to a lower station), she suggested that I find projects to work on over the next several days (and oh my she alluded to weeks) while we wait for little guy to be born. I told her, “I am driving my family crazy. I have taken on just about every house project that I can think of (really I have; this weekend I even began sorting through my husband’s closet and would have organized his computer gear into color coded boxes if he hadn’t caught me)”
My continued rant to my midwife: ” . . . I’ve planned out weeks of activities to do with my daughter . . . I just want this kid to be born already!” To which my midwife laughed. Yes, she laughed at me. I’m pretty sure she thinks I’ve gone off my rocker, and to be honest, I (and probably most who know me) feel that way too.
My husband tells me that the woman he married must have checked out of her body oh, about 4 weeks ago . . . here I am, the woman who prayed for a natural birth . . . a birth that could even happen at home . . . and I hear myself telling my husband, “I just want pitocin. I just want an epidural. I just want my baby.” And this guy, who I love dearly and was just months ago arguing for a hospital birth is telling me, “He’ll be born when he is ready. You know that.” If I weren’t feeling so crazy right now (so pregnant . . . so, so pregnant), I’d appreciate his wisdom and encouragement (because deep down I know that he is right), but alas, I am crazy, I am pregnant, and I am a woman eager to give birth.
So I listen to “patience,” go for long walks, clean my house (Martha would be so proud), water my garden, drink raspberry leaf tea, and pray pray pray that my boy will soon be born. Oh yeah, and now I am working on Green Mamma . . . that was the whole point of this long drawn out rant . . . I decided that I’d change the theme here, move a few things around, and work with my husband (because he is code savvy) to make things run smoother. I like the Thesis Theme; it’s neat, simple, and organized . . . which is this pregnant woman’s dream come true.
And now for a winner . . . I’d like to congratulate Jamie at Suburban Saving Mama as the winner of Fiona Bird’s Kids’ Kitchen by Barefoot Books. Congrats Jamie!
And to everyone else who participated in the Kids Kitchen giveaway, thank you! Stay tuned for another creative, green Barefoot Books giveaway soon. Oh yeah, and I have a few baby items coming too . . .
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Oh, I hated being pregnant. I really really wanted to love it, I tried so hard … but I just wanted the baby to be born! Everything you do now to get organised will really help you though. Good luck
Monica, to be honest, I actually watched Yes Man because I read your post, :-) Today my midwife told me to forget about being pregnant and just keeping going (easy to say . . . maybe possible?). I did discover that what I am really afraid of is being out of control and having to have a hospital birth (because I am attached to the idea of a natural birth at home or at my midwifery birth center). I am trying to make peace with the idea that my baby’s birth will go as it needs to and that what I want more than anything is healthy baby, :-) I am hoping for this weekend though . . . so I haven’t entirely let go . . .
The felting was pretty easy to do; let me know if you want any feedback/help when you try it with your little one.
Oh, I’m feeling for you, your post is funny…but I promise no laughs at your expense! I swear by a comedy (“Yes Man”) after our last experience, but you are right, it’ll all happen perfectly.
Thanks for the felting post as well, we’ll give this a try.
Theme looks great, very clean :)
Best wishes,
mammasapplecores, lucky lady, :-) For the most part, my hubby is letting me do “my thing” . . . whatever that is at any given moment. Glad other can laugh with me . . . this is chaos and hilarity all wrapped up into one . . .
robin, thank you for the labor vibes; I’m praying that they’ll work! I really am trying to determine if there is something else I need to let go . . . it may be a fear that I cannot do this on my own because my last labor was artificially brought on . . . I keep repeating to myself that my boy and I can do this together: on our own, :-)
Tabbie, thank you for the empowering words; pregnancy sure is a world unto its own . . . one that I’ve enjoyed and . . . well, am ready to release so that I may hold my newborn babe.
Melody, :-) I’ve done about 400 pelvic tilts between yesterday afternoon and this morning . . . hopefully I’ll hear good news about his position at today’s appointment. Thank you for the encouragement; I know his birth day will come just at the right time, :-)
I love the new theme :).
As hard as it is, you might be much less stressed if you can just surrender to the last few moments of pregnancy. If you can, it may help you in labor, too (since it’s one of those things we definitely cannot control). This may be the biggest hurdle for you, but just think of how you can grow from the whole experience :). I know it’s annoying to hear ‘He’ll come when he’s ready, you won’t be pregnant forever, blah blah blah’, so I’ll try not to go there. Enjoy these last moments with Annabelle, things will be so much different once he’s here, life will be so different, but in many ways the same, once you have a floppy little baby in your arms.
If you need anything, just let me know. Oh, and keep up those pelvic tilts :P.
Great new theme! Behold the power of womanhood and the natural chemicals flowing through your arteries and veins. Pregnancy is a world unto its own. You share it perfectly with your readers…it’s amazing really!
i love the new look. can you and your husband come do my blog next…that is, if your baby isn’t born.
i will keep on sending you “perfect timing for mamma and baby boy healthy happy labor vibes” and i will also start sending you some very special peace/contentment/time and space do not exist vibes. really, it will be “soon” (whatever that means) and if the delay keeps bringing us wonderful things like this new design i can see why he is holding out ;)
or more seriously, is there anything else you need to share or get out to clear space for his arrival?
love waiting with you from afar
robin
Your post made me giggle. Thanks, I needed that today. I remember the crazy pregnant woman I was last year about this time. My priorities were very mixed up and my husband didn’t quite understand why I did what I did in what order, but it was important to me at that time, and he kindly let me do my thing.
Hoping your baby comes soon and easily! :)